I cant breath, i feel so sfraid of people staring at me, looking at me, judging me. thinking im hideous , they cant be looking at me because im pretty because i dont see that, im average but not amazing .I just want to be invisable i dont want men to look at me, i just want to be alone.everyday , i have to pretend that im happy, smile fake it, but all i want to do is cry, im such a fucking mess.and no one sees it, they say 'you look tired' im not , im fucking miserable. and i know its really messed up but its what im wearing , everything looks so dandy on me, i just feel like i just dont want to be on this world , i dont know what else to do , i'll walk home, and im just waiting for one fuck to stare and cuss me, im just an easy target , i hate it !