My Safe Haven

I never wanted to be this insecure, most times I just want to be the best i can , love,live and laugh as much as i could, but i feel as though i only hate myself because of my mother,Im going to try and not hate myself like i said i would. Im goign to hopefully get into roehampton and make new friends , buy a new wardrobe and be the fashionista i have always wanted.Finish uni, move out get a job at a clinic and live with my cat , apartment will be bohoemian and pretty and i'll have an exercising thing there, i will live like i have always wanted, then when i get enough courage i will move to vancouver and buy an aprtment that looks like new england, find a man  and have children , live.Thats my safe haven, knowing that someday, i wont have to endure my mother.